Thoughts that you can't decode .

YWednesday, July 30, 2008' 8:21 PM

I may be rather straight foward ..
If you took my words too seriously ..
There's nothing i can do ..
Maybe i will apologise ..

Depending on who and if i'm sincere about it ..
But think of it again ..
What ever i write on my blog ...
is just to express myself or tell about whatever happened in my life ..

That's the only thing i can do ..
i'm bad at words when expressing my unhappiness ..
so by writing in my blog would be the best ..
Sometimes if i am going to confront that person ..
It might lead to FIGHT.!

So whatever comment i wrote ..
It's not for you to change or whatsoever ..
it's for you to do something about it ..
By doing this people might have different thoughts about it ..

So by doing that ..
It's show clearly that you are keeping a distance from us or you don't want to be friend with us ..
Not as if we care that much ..

YThursday, July 24, 2008' 11:51 PM

Talk on the phone with Alice ..
Told her about this cliques ..
She then asked me to write on my blog about them ..
It would be great to let people know about my cliques ..
Let's start with those who are currently in same school with me ..

Hariz ..
This tall curly head ASSHOLE .. ((=
Somehow i LOVE his hair ..
Been my companion eversince in REPUBLIC POLY.!
He's one funny BASTARD .!!
Which never fails to make me laugh everyday ..
Somehow i feel much closer to him compare to the past ..
CARLITO IS COOL ..

Selina ..
She one little crazy Girl ..
She somehow have something i LOVE ..
She might know what is it..
If she doesn't know it ..
Mean she's a total DUMBNESS.. ((=
But overall ..
She is nice and good to me somehow .!!
She's cool .!!

Arenas Chong ..
I once thought we could be a close friend ..
If we went into the same poly ..
But i was wrong ..
i always ignore those comment given about him ..
i am always sitting on the fence ..
but now..
i've choosen my side..
He's a total ASSHOLE ..
The way he talked the other day ..
Has really pissed me off ..

Katherine ..
She somehow bloody fierce ..
and has the strength of a male.!!
She is quite caring i guess ..
Pity her to have such a good friend ..!
Those who know will know ..
She's cool too..

Dwyane ..
i like his persevering attitude ..
It's obvious ..
You can see through his physical appearance ..
He is not that attitude compare to someone ..
He's cool ..

Ivy ..
Has been my arguing patner since secondary school ..
His blur and dumbness which make me LOVE ..
to disturb,bully,argue,shoot her ..
She's so pretty that a pathetic "saint" love her before..
HAHAS ((=
She so super cheapo .!!

Khairi ..
I always like to hear his story ..
True or not ..
who cares ..
He's such a sweet-talk-mother-fucker ..
HAHAS ((=

Khairul ..
Very super cheeky ..
He always win when shooting people ..
But he's finally meet his match ..
A funny guy indeed ..

Sham ..
Use to be close with him ..
somehow we are drifting ..
i'm not sure ..
WHY ..

That's it ..
i think i will update about my classmates soon ..
HAHAS((=

YWednesday, July 23, 2008' 12:51 AM

GOSH ..
People do wish me well tommorrow ..
i'm sitting for Two important Test ..
Pray for me people .!!

Okay anyways ..
Celebrated Liping birthday ..
i thought it was her last birthday ..
But i was wrong ..
Next year will be her last one ..

Ok than ,when celebrating it ...
Something shocking happened ..
It was so bloody shocking can.?
Ok i don't want talk about it ..

Than sometimes ..
i wish there is someone who i could trust ..
i could tell how i feel and what's in my mind now..
But somehow things backfires ..
Even my siblings i could not trust that much ..
Even my Cliques ..
Even my MUM.!!

She so not understanding can .?
OK whatever..
people won't even care ..
Looks like i have to push all my targets backwards ..
especially passing my T.P ..

And the born of my new BABY.!!
HAHAS ((=
And the most of all ..
That BENJAMIN KONG.!!
say i'm fat.!!

GOSH ..
isit true .?
My effort has just gone done the drain ..
Ok anyways ..

My grandma has finally get to go HAJI.!!
WOOO..
congrats ..
Lets pray for her ..
if you are sincere enough ..

YFriday, July 18, 2008' 1:09 AM

I seriously can't believed that i chat with her till that long ..
I didn't know what we were chatting about ..
I was sms-ing her while chatting with Jasmin and Sharon about VB.

It was her ,that realise that we've been chatting quite a long time ..
But in the end it was me who end the conversation ..
Cause she say it was my choice weather to reply her msg..
Than think of it again it was quite true ..

We have the right to choose ..
Than i just didn't reply at all ..
HAHAS ((=
Continue doing my work ..

Being the goodboy i am ..
i start doing EXCEL ..
It was tough though ..
But heck ..
who cares ..
Got RONG TING ..
No fears.!!
HAHAS ((=

Than there's this song which i start to fall in love with ..
Stay the same -Joe McIntyre.

[Chorus]

Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far
.And I hope you always stay the same,
cuz there's nothin' 'bout you I would change.

[Verse]

I think that you could be whatever you wanted to beIf you could realize,
all the dreams you have inside.
Don't be afraid if you've got something to say,
Just open up your heart and let it show you the way.

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
Believe in yourself
.Reach down inside.
he love you find will set you free
.Believe in yourself,
you will come alive.
Have faith in what you do.
You'll make it through.

YThursday, July 17, 2008' 5:34 AM

It seems that people do changed over times ..
So does the feeling towards someone ..
Let it be ..
Even attitude towards someone will change ..

There is a excellent example ..
LiKe my "beloved" CLIQUES.!
They are such a wordeful peoples which i thought could have fun with ..
End up .??

HAHAS ((=
Like someone say ..
All this is jus part and parcel of life ..
Like it or not ..
This is your destiny ..

I don't really agree with that luh ..
It's like this is your life ..
You choose your own path ..
You make your own choices ..

You have no right to degrading a person beauty ..
Even if a person beauty is beyond CMI ..
Thier beauty is still lies within them ..
And we have no right to degrade them at all ..
It is as if you are discriminating others from the rest ..

Omg .!!
I just sound like that idiot ..
HAHAS ((=
Ok back to my CLIQUES ..

The very next time i'm going to meet them will be ..
during CARNIVAL at CCKSS ..
i hope it would be quite fun ..!

I'm seriously going to MISS people of W34G
Semester ending soon ..
And i hope i could enjoy the last few weeks ..
w/o any conflicts ..
it would be great if all of them could come for the upcoming chalet ..
The last meeting before we separate ..
HAHAS((=

YMonday, July 14, 2008' 5:38 AM

Discrimination is always an issued in our daily life ..
People judgement is always a prejudiced towards those unlucky one..
Today i had an encounter with regarding this issues ..
It sometimes make me feel that i'm the villain here ..

During the presentation ..
Our facillitator gave comment that there's an aura of discrimination in our group ..
Than i was like .?
What the HECK & FCUK.!!

We did things together yet she say we discriminate the 2 China students ..
We even compromise with him ..
Yet she say we discriminate them ..
When we did finish our PPT ..

They edit and added news slide w/o us knowing ..
where were they when we were doing it.?
GOSH ..
it's more likely that they are discriminating themself from us ..

We initiate the discussion and ask for their ideas yet they act as if ..
they were deaf ..
How i wish the 3 weeks would end soon ..
Anyway Sally & Julin ..

We are not in wrong ..
Discrimination never even crossed our mind ..
So let heck about them ..
And it's the 2nd time i flared up in class ..

i'm SORRY..
HAHAS ((=

YTuesday, July 8, 2008' 12:15 AM

Life may seem unfair ..
but if you learnt how to love your life ..
or even accept it ..
you can come to terms where life is much more fun and exciting than you could ever imagine ..

I think my life just rotate around my friends ..
They add colours to it ..
but let me clarified first not those who ignored me ..
when i acknowledge them..

HAHAS ((=
I must be very bad ..
i just can't stand it ..
Making feel frustrated ..

Anyways ..
That asshole sent me such a msg which make me think like hell..
but HAHAS ((=
think of it again ..
its kinda cute sey ..

i so looking foward towards the Carnival CCKSS ..

YThursday, July 3, 2008' 5:17 AM

" LET'S FORGIVE AND FORGET EVEN IF IT IS DIFFICULT TO DO SO.! "
At first i always thought it was just total crap ..
How to forgive.?
when there's still anger and frustration still lies deep in your heart..

i always find it total rubbish ..
but now ..
i guess things changes..
so does the way i think..

If you can't forgive or forget ..
it's just that you are still clinging to the past ..
If you are still clinging to the past .?
How are you going to move foward ..

Then i guess i would like to apologise ..
to those who i did wrong ..
And those whom i had grudges or whatsoever ..
Let's bury the hatchet ..

Today during lesson..
went off half way with
Sally ..
Sharon ..
M.Y ..
Yixin ..
Derek
Badd ..
S.C ..
Hariz ..

Went to bugis ..
The girls went to shop ..
while the guys play pool at "POOL FUSHION" ..
We played one vs one ..

Than derek and badd on laptop ..
and watch SEX IS ZERO ..
Than those who playing pool all start to watch it too ..
And all watch it in the end ..

HAHAS ((=
Update soon ..