Thoughts that you can't decode .

YSaturday, October 18, 2008' 9:00 AM

I know i should be sleeping at this time ..
But don't know why i can't sleep ..
and i have this sudden urge of blogging ..

i also don't know why i'm feeling so uptight right now..
it's like something is not right somewhere ..
i must be lying if i was to say ..
i'm ok ..

There's like alot of thing running in my mind ..
i don't know how to act ..
or what to say in some situation ..

Then i'm so worried about my performance in school ..
i'm begining to lose interest in what i'm doing now..
There's always an urge to go home half way ..
This has been going on for the past 3-4 weeks ..

My partial rate is increasing slowly ..
which somehow going to affect my GPA.
Ok for those who like know me ..
Will be like ..
"HUH?since when syahril cared about his result or studies".

That's true ..
But this time round
i'm trying my very best to do well for the sake of my mum ..
She's been nice to me compare in the past ..

And the very least that i can do is ..
Make her proud ..
But FUCK ..
There's always an obstacle ..

For one of my module ..
One of my facilitator gave me and Fucking "C"
Which i think i deserve better ..
i won't asked for an "A"

A "B" grade would be fair ..
When i sent her an email questioning her abilities in grading us .
she replied in a sarcastic way ..
OH FUCK ..
who give a damn right ..

Let me get it straight here..
i'm not trying to gain any sympathy here..
by ranting it all out here ..

i just need something or someplace to vent it out ..